24th August 2011 - Wednesday


Life goes on as usual.
Many things have happened recently, be it good or bad.
But hey, life goes on and everything is great now.
One of the best thing that happened is that...

I OFFICIALLY QUIT MAPLE .

Yepps! Every single connection with maple has been cutted off!
Sold all my items, hence forcing myself to quit for good.
And I did it :D .
Really sick of games already, bcos i find it so pointless.
Login, whack, chat, slack, logoff.

Now my next goal is to afford my own lamborghini before age 30.
But it's tough to start.
Means I have 7 years to earn 1mil SGD all by myself.
Not sure what am i gonna do and how am i gonna do it damn =/.
I guess I just gotta wait for the chance to come and be ready for it..



Dad's banker bought this book for me to read =D.
Cost like 70+sgd, man..
Haven't really gotten to read it yet, cos it looks very boring..
And i need to be in a good mood to read it hmm.
I bet there will be alot of technical terms in that book damn.
Not sure how am i gonna understand it.

Another big thing..
Some stuff has been going on that might be affecting me financially on a negative light..
Hope everything will turn out fine..
Fingers crossed.
I really hate being poor..

My girlfriend is back from taiwan :D
Finally!
Even though i still can contact her, but it feels different =/.
Maybe i'm just used to her being with me all the time.
Feels kinda good, it's like someone is always there for you, no matter what happens.
I really like that feeling :)
But i try not to bother her too much, try to give her some space.
I'm afraid that i'm crowding her too much..
Must try not to be too dependent on my girl, if not she'll feel very suffocated by me =/.
But still! It's GREAT to have her back! =D

Nowadays I have insomnia.
I don't know if it's called insomnia if i still can sleep but w/e man.
I keep thinking and thinking at night.
Just lying on bed and think for hours non stop.
I feel so trapped here.
Never thought I'd say this but I dun really like living here.
I feel so enclosed, like all my thoughts are circling around this area.
Am thinking of going to the park when I cant sleep
but i think my parents are gonna kill me for going out at 2am..
Besides, it's 7th month now.
I won't have the balls to do so anyway =p.

Always thought i don't fear death, but i do.
Very scared of death on my loved ones.
3years ago, if I die, i have no regrets.
But now, I have too much that i hold dear to.
My girlfriend, my family, my dogs...
Cant bear to leave them.
But hell, I'm not gonna die -.-. Dunno why I'm thinking this again.
I think I have split personality issues wtf.

Sometimes i really dun wanna think so much and too much.
It's so so tiring really
It's like i can never ever stop
I want to but i can't
If I have nothing to busy myself with, I'll start thinking and thinking and thinking
And I will think of dark thoughts.
Like, afraid i'll fail my exams, afraid i'll lose my girlfriend, my family
I don't know if it's cos i feel insecure or unsure
I just know that im always thinking of all these thoughts.
and it wears me out..


Seeking for peace, love and tranquility.

24th August 2011 - Wednesday


Life goes on as usual.
Many things have happened recently, be it good or bad.
But hey, life goes on and everything is great now.
One of the best thing that happened is that...

I OFFICIALLY QUIT MAPLE .

Yepps! Every single connection with maple has been cutted off!
Sold all my items, hence forcing myself to quit for good.
And I did it :D .
Really sick of games already, bcos i find it so pointless.
Login, whack, chat, slack, logoff.

Now my next goal is to afford my own lamborghini before age 30.
But it's tough to start.
Means I have 7 years to earn 1mil SGD all by myself.
Not sure what am i gonna do and how am i gonna do it damn =/.
I guess I just gotta wait for the chance to come and be ready for it..



Dad's banker bought this book for me to read =D.
Cost like 70+sgd, man..
Haven't really gotten to read it yet, cos it looks very boring..
And i need to be in a good mood to read it hmm.
I bet there will be alot of technical terms in that book damn.
Not sure how am i gonna understand it.

Another big thing..
Some stuff has been going on that might be affecting me financially on a negative light..
Hope everything will turn out fine..
Fingers crossed.
I really hate being poor..

My girlfriend is back from taiwan :D
Finally!
Even though i still can contact her, but it feels different =/.
Maybe i'm just used to her being with me all the time.
Feels kinda good, it's like someone is always there for you, no matter what happens.
I really like that feeling :)
But i try not to bother her too much, try to give her some space.
I'm afraid that i'm crowding her too much..
Must try not to be too dependent on my girl, if not she'll feel very suffocated by me =/.
But still! It's GREAT to have her back! =D

Nowadays I have insomnia.
I don't know if it's called insomnia if i still can sleep but w/e man.
I keep thinking and thinking at night.
Just lying on bed and think for hours non stop.
I feel so trapped here.
Never thought I'd say this but I dun really like living here.
I feel so enclosed, like all my thoughts are circling around this area.
Am thinking of going to the park when I cant sleep
but i think my parents are gonna kill me for going out at 2am..
Besides, it's 7th month now.
I won't have the balls to do so anyway =p.

Always thought i don't fear death, but i do.
Very scared of death on my loved ones.
3years ago, if I die, i have no regrets.
But now, I have too much that i hold dear to.
My girlfriend, my family, my dogs...
Cant bear to leave them.
But hell, I'm not gonna die -.-. Dunno why I'm thinking this again.
I think I have split personality issues wtf.

Sometimes i really dun wanna think so much and too much.
It's so so tiring really
It's like i can never ever stop
I want to but i can't
If I have nothing to busy myself with, I'll start thinking and thinking and thinking
And I will think of dark thoughts.
Like, afraid i'll fail my exams, afraid i'll lose my girlfriend, my family
I don't know if it's cos i feel insecure or unsure
I just know that im always thinking of all these thoughts.
and it wears me out..


Seeking for peace, love and tranquility.